Engraved in my bones,
The crimson battles of life,
Tapestry of pride.
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Battle scars are deep,
A warrior created by life,
How cruel can life be?
Have you ever tried to calculate the total depth of life’s cruelty,no because simply we can’t.When we think that we are on the last level of Chaos,life gives you an extra level and spits at your face and says that “it was only a warm up“.You begin to fight,you want life to follow your rules,but life has it’s own tricks up it’s sleeve.Life is a murderer,it is blood thirsty,it is venomous,it puts innocent people’s life in great peril,the strong one survives,the weak ones signs the deal to the devil named Life,Life enjoys being a Puppeteer and innocent souls his puppets.
“Cry of an Angel”
I have always done good but why I am the one always being punished,why is life so torturing,my heart is bruised.I am tired,I help everyone,why no hand is raised for me when I need help,I give up my dreams,but why I am still the one being called selfish,If I don’t properly feed my pet why am I hurriedly given the award of “your child will die of hunger“,even if I do support my family,why am I called “heartless”and”self absorbed”,why don’t they see what I do for them,sometimes I want to run away but I don’t have any place to go,I try to convince,I am strong but deep inside I know,I don’t have any other option and if I had any option,I would have left years ago,I pray to God to tell me,the facade I show to the world,is it real? or is it fake? if it is fake,then rip it off my face and burn me as i have betrayed and made fool of the people who think I am noble,rip my heart and stab it again and again as a punishment of being a hypocrite,I beg for mercy,but I am desperate,to question my own self because the people who really know me says “I am FAKE” they say I don’t stand up for them,but do they stand up for me.I read somewhere “A person is not what he shows,a person is in reality what he hides”.Was my kindness all this time a mere camefloge for the demon that I really am,have I been living in a fantasy where I thought I was noble,I was honourable.Was it all “A BIG FAT lie”,I see my people fighting,I don’t know whose side to take,I don’t know who is right or who is wrong? They fight as if it is for fun,they want to make each other suffer,rip eachother’s honour like shredded clothes from the body,I am tired of stopping them,I want them to end it for once and for all,I want them gone but I know I am scared that one day God will listen to me and take away the noise and suffering,but after when it’s gone I will want it back,but the only thing I will be offered is complete silence!,The silence I wished for but never asked for.It will be a gift to me by “The devil Life”
Written as per request by a friend. “The dark reality of life”
I am tired of all the drama. I know it will only bring me trauma,
But somehow, i end up going back to the hell,that i want to forget,
I feel it surrounds me, I feel it is latched to my bod, I sometimes see it’s silhouette, In the mirror behind my bed.
Enjoying the torture,it’s making me suffer,
I try to stand but it pushes me back, taunts me,teases me,bashes me in the head.
Soon it get’s tired and walks away, stops in the middle and says,
“I will be back”.
I have been nominated by a Blogger so i am acknowledging him @theycallmenagu thanks for the nomination, i am honored!
Check out his blog: https://tinsandwichblog.wordpress.com
The rules of this award:
1. Acknowledge the blog who nominated you and display the award.
2. Answer the 11 questions the blogger gives you.
3. Give 11 random facts about yourself.
4. Nominate 11 blogs.
5. Notify those blogs of the nomination.
6. Give them 11 questions to answer
Questions by @theycallmenagu
1.What’s the story behind your blog ?
Well i started my blog because i had that itch to write something,anything and someone said that i had a way with words, so i thought i should start one maybe make people happy or motivated or even inspire them.
2.Your favorite song/artist/band/soundtrack ?
This is easy actually my favorite band is Imagine Dragons,they are the best,they motivate me and they have played a huge role in making me who i am today,so i just love them, my favorite track right now is “Whatever it takes” and it has a lyric “you take me to the top i am ready for whatever it takes, it feels so good when i break the chain” damn i am gone.
3.Dog person , cat person or just person ?
Well definitely a cat person, i have them as a companion since i was 4,I have a black persian male Cat right now and i love him so much
4.A dish which you can eat everyday , without complaining.
Chowmein, i would never get bored with it.
5.What superpower would you like to have?
Mind read or teleport can’t decide both are awesome.
6.What qualities do you seek in your partner ?
Okay this is tough let’s see someone who let’s me do the crazy things i want to do in life and actually do them with me,kind,adventurous and loving.A person who has respect for women, not to much right
7.Your views on religion and tolerance ?
I respect other religions and i don’t believe in hating a person if he is from a different religion or cast or whatever,he is first a human in my opinion
.8.Which day of your life would you like to live again, exactly the way it was ?
It was my demo, i was a teacher and i still remember the day before, i was goofing around with my fellow teachers and i was making them laugh so the next day everyone was scared but i was calm for no reason and i can’t explain why i was, i gave my demo infront of our senior teachers and the school incharge and principal and the demo went amazing ,the incharge stood up and made all of the teachers seniors or juniors clap for me and said it was the best demo she had ever seen in her life and it was even better than the senior teachers,i was a junior,the whole staff was cheering my name.She was so proud.
9. Where do you want to spend your life?
Umm right where i am,won’t change a thing i have all i need right now and i am happy and satisfied,thank you very much
10.Have you helped a stranger ? What was your experience and what was their reaction?
I remember one time when i was in a bus and it was really hot and this lady was standing, the whole bus was packed so i offered her my seat,first she thought that my stop came then when she saw me standing there,she smiled to me and said thank you and said many kind things,Aww thank you lady.
11.How happy are you with your life right now ?
Completely happy and satisfied,what can i say i have a family that looks out for me,i have friends few but faithful,i am strong right now,motivated and filled with passion, i am doing what i love writing and studying what i always wanted,not to mention the university in which i wanted to be enrolled, i have made many people happy and i am going to do it my entire life.I am giving this world hope that good people are still present,they are not extinct,you just have to find them.
1.What is your favorite word?
2.what is your least favorite word?
3.Paris or Los Angeles?
4.Black or navy blue?
5. The one thing you regret the most in your life?
6.The best compliment you ever received by someone?
8. Favorite quote?
9. Your motto of life?
10. What is your “BIGGEST FEAR”?
11.What show will you choose if it was your life “Walking dead” or “American horror” story?
Now my Nominations:
When light made me feel like a foreigner,
Darkness embraced me in its arm,it latched itself to me and promised to devour those who try to devour me.
At night it hushed me to sleep, Secured my heart in it’s ribcage, lulled me with it’s sullen melodies, I I admired it,It admired me back, Darkness became my guardian.
My silhouette darkness.
A thought came to my mind as i was sitting on my sofa,day dreaming of the things that are unrealistic and strange in nature.Then the thought shifted to my best friend,who is getting married,betrothed in December.Such a strange feeling crept inside my body making me feel in a way that i believe can never be explained, as i cannot describe the feeling,it is a mixture of sadness,happiness,agitation with a pinch of everything that makes a body anxious,forces it to move,i can’t control it.We met in a school,we were both teachers.Young,beautiful,fresh and lively as hell.We were total 6 in number (our group),but soon two decided to go astray,leaving us four to fight the world together.Sometimes i miss us,the whole group,how happy and how we thought we were larger than life,how naive we were,but we lived our life to the fullest.Now one of us is getting married soon we all will too,one is engaged,the other one has someone special and I am happily single,living my life my way.I see and totally understand how important the significant other is,I believe when the time is right he will come,I will wait,Idon’t fear that if ever I will have someone to love me,No,I believe in miracles and I have watched them with my eyes happening infront of me.Everything has a right time but right now it’s my time to really discover who I am and what I want.We promised each other that we will definitely dance at others wedding and always remember each other and stay in touch even if we move out of city or country.The situation will change but the friendship will always remain the same because there is no power that can sabotage a perfect friendship we are connected by souls.It feels so weird that i was young but now i am seeing my friends tieing the knots and moving towards the life which lie ahead of them,soon i will too.We leave so many things behind our family,our home,our room,our friends some stay but some have to leave. I know when i will go,i won’t be able to say goodbye because i hate it,I hate the word goodbye itself.But let me tell you one thing,It is not a goodbye,it’s just a beginning of something beautiful, its just a time or moment, when we open our wings and fly away.
“As we go on we remember
All the times we had together
As our life change
We will still be friends forever”
The girl who was quite,
the girl who was sensitive,
the girl who had a storm for a mind,
a blackhole for a heart,
memories,heart breaks and deep bruises
permanently secured inside,
the blackhole opened at mid night to swallow more disaster
to tell the witch what she possessed was an apocalypse.
if she can survive inner destruction,she can survive anything